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Right‽

Dear God

It's complicated

All these ventricles and veins

Pumping blood up to our brains

From our wild and woolly hearts

Oh Christ

The incarnated

Is this what you could see

In the garden on your knees

Begging for another way?

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing right.

Right‽

Oh my

Aren't we frustrated

Taking sides and making stands

Drawing lines deep in the sand

For the wind to blow away

Dear me

The implicated

Always thinking I can tell

What is good and right and well

Without seeing the other side

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing right.

Right‽

It's hard as hell to love your neighbor

It might be just as hard to love yourself

But it if you want to get along

Then you've got to get along

Cause it's not like we've got anybody else.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing.

How do you do the right thing?

You do the right thing right.

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Bones

I knew a man

Spent all his life

Selling insurance in case of fire

Or some act of God

Come crashing down

Burning all his things into the ground

But when death came through

It did care

No insurance could save him from those stairs

Your bones get old before you know

That man’s wife

She asked me how

Was she supposed to know what to do now

But I could not say

I had not thought

Of what the living do when the dead is all they got

But I’d tell her now

Do what you want

I know ghosts don’t choose where they get to haunt

Your bones get old before you know

I spend my days

Picking up the dead

Most of them dying in their beds

But no not me

I will not go

Lying on my back waiting for death to show

I’ll stretch my legs

And split this town

And death can do his best to track me down

Your bones get old before you know

Favorite Season

She says fall’s her favorite season

Even though it smells like death

But it’s worth it just to watch the colors turn

And she know all good things

Eventually see their end

Like when you set the leaves out to burn

She’s got it tattooed on her hip

So she never will forget

That a part of her has left this world for good

I’d like to write her on my skin

Let her know when this all ends

I’d hold her in my arms if I could

Ain’t it the truth

That we trade in our youth

For gray hair and wrinkled skin

But ain’t it a lie

That when good things do die

They never do live again

I am thinking if she’d let me

I would tell her about forever

And how some things simply turn to gold

And when you think that they will fail you

Instead they stand beside you

And hang around until the world explodes

Ain’t it the truth

That we trade in our youth

For gray hair and wrinkled skin

But ain’t it a lie

That when good things do die

They never do live again

So give me the spring

Give me trees turning green

Give me birds heading home from the south

This is redemption:

The chance to try again

The chance to choose faith over doubt

Little bird

Oh little bird

How you carry all those heavy things

With just your will and wings

I’ll never know

Oh little bird

You’ve got the strength of an army

Marching out to certain death

You survey the scene

And take the wind into your chest

And try, try again

But oh why, why

And oh when, oh when

Does the trouble end?

And as for me

I’ve mostly been a quitter

As long as I have been alive

It’s just been easier

But little bird

Watching you makes me want to

Finish something before I die

Before I leave this world and say goodbye

I’ll try, try again

But oh why, why

And oh when, oh when

Does the trouble end?

And you don’t have to be strong here

You can let down your guard here

I know it’s been a long year

But you don’t have to be strong here

Oh little bird

How flying south must feel like a marathon

But you can finish strong

I know you and I know you can

 
 
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Ghost 

I want to be a ghost

So I can haunt your house forever

And you’ll never ever ever be alone

 

I want to be a bird

Living just outside your window

Tucked away beneath the shadow of your home

 

I want to be a tree

Stretching shade over your backyard

Reaching roots down deep and so far into the ground

 

I want to be a mouse

Living just beneath the floorboards

So content with being ignored and never known

 

I want be a ghost

 

I want to be alive

To see my breath against the moonlight

In the January midnight

While my hands begin to frostbite

And my knuckles turn to pale white

With our freezing fingers squeezed tight

And I’m standing there by your side

And it feels like all is just right

And I promise you with all my might

You’ll never spend another night

Alone

 

I want to be alive

Sky Full of Birds

Darling, cut off your hair

And I will bleed the marrow

from my bones

And we’ll use it like glue

To build a nest for me and you



Darling, let out your lungs

And take in the winter sunshine

And keep in mind

That the spring will return

And with it a sky full of birds



Aren’t we more than just our lonely old hearts?



Darling, hold out your hand

And take this heart I’ve handsewn

All my own

You can loosen the thread

And stitch it to yours instead



Aren’t we more than just our lonely old hearts?

Black and Achromatic

You’ve got this elephant heart

Beating slow and sound

And I’ve got all these broken parts

And I’m wondering if I could stick around

For a while



Me and my hummingbird head

Buzzing to beat the band

We sleep the sleep of the dead

When you quiet the clamor with your hands

And your hum



And I know how I float away, my dear

And leave you here

Alone



But I am coming back to you

Through the black and achromatic hues

To the color and the sound of you

I am coming back to you

Eggs

 

All these pretty little birds

Hatching from their pretty little eggs

Ought to jump right back inside

and pull the shards of shell

back over their pretty little heads

 

All these itty bitty worms

Crawling from their itty bitty holes

Ought to duck back down

inside the earth and shovel dirt

back over their pretty little souls

 

I know how I'm always shouting about

the end of the world

and the sky falling down

But you would be too

if you would only pick up your head and look around

 

All these pretty little words

Falling from our pretty little tongues

Ought to think before they

Slip between our lips and teeth and 

 

All these itty bitty smiles

Hiding in our itty bitty lies

Ought to do their best

to bait and switch

and pull the wool back over our itty bitty eyes

 

And when everything around me gets so bad

I can only ever manage to get so sad

Before I hear you and your favorite line:

Honey, it'll be just fine 

Sharks!

 

Lord knows I try

To drown my sorrows out

Two hands real tight

On the neck and hold them down

 

But I just can’t win

My sorrows swim

They got great big fins

And I just can’t win

 

You know I try

To set my teeth and smile

But I just can’t quite

So please just stay awhile

 

I just can’t win

My sorrows swim

They got great big fins

And I just can’t win

 

So hold me close to your feathered breast

And wrap me in your wings

And sing to me a lullaby

Maybe then I’ll get to sleep

 

Close your eyes

It’ll be alright

Close them good and tight

It’ll be alright 

 

Secret Secret

 

If I told you that I need you

If I said I want you always near

If I whispered how I love you

Sweet and sibilant into your ear

 

Would you keep it like a secret?

 

If I told you just what haunts me

Of the fears that keep me up at night

Would you stay awake beside me

Wrap me in your arms and hold me tight

 

And would keep it like a secret?

Would you keep it like a secret secret?

 

Keep it in your heart

Keep it in your head

Keep it til the world goes dark and dead

 

If I told you of the darkness

Of the blight that hides inside my heart

Would you open up your ribcage

And let me look at all your broken parts

 

And would keep it like a secret?

Would you keep it like a secret secret? 

Braveface

I’m boned tired

And my one desire

Is to hold you in my arms

Before the sun comes up

I’m road sick

So I’m coming home as quick

As the wheels beneath my seat

Will carry me across the ground

Oh Braveface

I’m on my way

I’m worn down

So I’m coming back to town

And I’m hoping that you’re up

And you’ll meet me at the door

I’m world weak

And the only thing I seek

Is the soft touch of your hand

Against the skin of my cheek

Oh Braveface

I’m on my way

I can’t say

Just what sends me on my way

Floating off above the trees

To where no one is around

But I’m home now

And I’m wondering just how

I could ever have believed

I’d survive without you

Oh Braveface

We’ll be okay

Newborn skin

You and I are much the same

Slippery in our newborn skin

You and I will split this name

Until the end, until the end

And you can have it all from me

My careless heart and calloused hands

You and you and me and we

And this screwloose plan, this screwloose plan

We’ve got bats in the belfry

Remember when the world was born

Underneath a pale blue sky?

You and I were bound and sworn

In the heat of high July

And now the earth is growing cold

The leaves are falling all around

Climb inside this heart of mine

I’ll keep you safe, I’ll keep you sound

Til the blackbirds come home

Now the sky is black and bone

Just the stars and sliver moon

And I am sleeping all alone

Sweating out this summer swoon

And dreaming of the bed we share

And how the light breaks through the blinds

And washes over all we have

That heart of yours, that home of mine

A Thousand Pines

 

Give me a thousand pines

Give me a tank of gas

Give me a pink swept sky

Give me a lake of glass

 

Give me the break of dawn

Give me a calling loon

Give me frozen pond

Give me a harvest moon

 

Give me an old guitar

Give me a pair of shoes

Give me the northern star

Give me a lot to lose

 

Give me baseball game

Give me the evening news

Give me a stolen name

Give me a good excuse

Give me a car to drive

Give me a foot of snow

Give me a reason why

Give me an open road

 

And I will give you all of me

At least all I know how to give

Which probably isn’t all that much

But maybe it is just enough

 

Cause I got this empty seat

And I got an open door

I got this map to read

I got heart of yours

 

I got a lonesome ride

That sun is sinking low

So why don’t you climb inside

And just tell me where to go?

Kid Memory 

Ride our bikes down to the lake

Coast the hills and pump the brake

 

Baseball on the radio

Summer days and nights roll slow

 

Skinny boys with scuffed up knees

Jars of grasshoppers and bees

 

Bottle rockets in the dark

Tire swings at Charlie park

 

Empty pockets grass stained jeans

Roller skates and trampolines

 

Sunlight glinting through the trees

Your hair blowing in the breeze

 

Turn your head and call my name

I am never since the same

 

Will you keep me in your kid memory?



 

Lyrics

Before We Know

I keep trying not to care about the things I cannot change

But it remains my resolution every year

And though I’m tired of being angry

I’m still shouting myself hoarse

Which of course makes it difficult to hear

All the ticks and all the tocks

From all the hands on all the clocks

And all the chimes on all the bells

From all the time that always tells me

That the world is fading fast

And the future will be past

Before we know

 

Maybe this year will be different and I’ll be wise enough to know

And just let go of all the things I cannot change

And I’ll finally find a way to just sit still

And pass the time

Reminded of what’s lovely and strange

Like a January thaw

Or that woodpeck I saw

Or the buds bursting from trees

Which soon will turn to leaves

Until the time again next fall

When the trees will drop them all

Before we know

 

I’ll be gone before I know it

Life it passes in a flash

Back to ash our bodies wash out to the sea

But before all of that happens

I resolve to do my best

To address just what could use some change in me

Less preaching and more prayer

More tenderness and care

Less judgement and more love

Less worry about stuff

More attention to what’s dear

Because it all will disappear

Before we know

 

(dis)appear

I would know you in the darkest dark

Your slope and shape

Your neck and nape

And the slow sound of your steady breath

The lovely scrape

As it escapes

 

We appear.

We disappear.

But while we’re here

I would know you in the darkest dark

 

I am trying the best I can

To hold this life

Both loose and tight

But my mind can’t

Quite keep it straight

My touch is light

My knuckles white

 

We appear.

We disappear.

But while we’re here

I am trying the best I can

 

Take a long look at the things you love

Don’t be afraid

Don’t look away

We’ll be gone on before we know

Nothing made

Fails to decay

 

We appear.

We disappear.

But while we’re here

Take a long look at the things you love.

 

InBetween

If life’s a joke

I’ve always hoped

the laugh behind it is divine

And we’ve just misread the room

And what’s the point

Was not the point at all

It was too small

And the laughter was the truth

 

Is it a joke to be alive

Is it so serious to die

It seems to me

the truth is always somewhere in between

 

But here’s the problem

What I want is to believe

with all my being

In a sure and certain path

A guarantee

That all the choices that I make

Will lead me right

Like life is only simple math

 

Wouldn’t it be nice?

If all the wrongs and rights

Were clear to me

Instead of always somewhere in between

 

When I was young

I only wanted to be old

Though I am told

That the opposite is true

But when I am old

I want to say I’ve loved it here

All of these years

And I’m not worried that it’s through

 

Most times they look the same

Tears of joy and tears of paint

And it might be

That they are always somewhere in between

 

Murmur

You’re a murmur of starlings

Darling

All your ever-shifting parts

A work of modern art

That I cannot understand

And I can’t look away

Or convey

All my slip-sliding thoughts

All twisted up in knots

Explaining how I feel

 

So I’ll keep writing you all these love songs

All my life long

Trying to get it right

And you’ll keep asking me

Why I do it

Why I can’t quit

But I just don’t know how

It’s just like breathing now

 

I’m an old tv set

Trying to get

The picture to come in

With strips of kitchen tin

Wrapped around my ears

But it’s mostly just snow

Even though
I’m giving it my best

I just haven’t got it yet

As clear as it can be

 

So I’ll keep writing you all these love songs

All my life long

Trying to get it right

And you’ll keep asking me

Why I do it

Why I can’t quit

But I just don’t know how

It’s just like breathing now

 

There’s a word that I learned

From a friend

About saying what you’ve got

By saying what it’s not

Possible to say

So then all that I know

I suppose

Of language and of rhyme

Of being and of time

Means nothing without you

 

Hook

Yesterday afternoon I realized

All of my favorite friends are gadflies

Buzzing in my ears

Asking why we’re here

And half of my head is philosophic

The other side’s staunchly catastrophic

Running around town

Shouting the blue skies down

 

Saying the good old days were never good

 

I heard a sermon preached on Thomas

Said it wasn’t the doubt that kept him honest

He was desperate to believe

In the things he couldn’t see

And I got to thinking I’m a lot like him

An optimist caught in a skeptic’s skin

Hoping everything is fine

Despite the warning signs

 

Saying the good old days were never good

We just saw the world the best we could

 

You know I love my indignation

Righteous or not that warm sensation

Spreading across my skin

Boiling to the brim

And you let me spin like a top on fire

Shouting and squealing like an amplifier

Until I blow another fuse

And surrender to the news

 

The last few years have been real bad

 

But you wait me out ever-patiently

Biding your time to remind me

Of all the things I’ve got

That I’ve conveniently forgot

And you put your hands up on my cheeks

And I can almost believe love could calm the seas

You look me in the eyes

And all the panic dies

 

Maybe the last few years haven’t been so bad

We just lost the line on all we had

 

And you say:

Let yourself off the hook

Let yourself off the hook now darling

Let yourself off the hook

I know you want to do it all by the book

But you should let yourself off the hook

 

Right‽ 

Dear God

It’s complicated

All these ventricles and veins

Pumping blood up to our brains

From our wild and wooly hearts

Oh Christ

The incarnated

Is this what you could see

In the garden on your knees

Begging for another way

 

How do you do the right thing

You do the right thing

How do you do the right thing

You do the right thing

How do you do the right thing

You do the right thing right

Right‽

 

Oh my

Aren’t we frustrated

Taking sides and making stands

Drawing lines deep in the sand

For the wind to blow away

Dear me

The implicated

Always thinking I can tell

What is good and right and well

Without seeing the other side

 

How do you do the right

You do the right thing right

Right‽

 

It’s hard as hell to love your neighbor

Might be just as hard to love yourself

But if we want to get along

Then we’ve got to get along

It’s not like we’ve got anybody else

 

How do you do the right

You do the right thing right

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HereNow

I pray to the saints of empty gas tanks

And to the God of the bottom of the ninth

I wait on a word on a whisper never heard

Though I listen with all my might

 

What if all there is

Is this?

 

Right here. Right now.

 

You hope for the best for the long peaceful rest

And the resurrection of the dead

And you fear silly things that the future may never bring

Oh how your heart pounds

 

And what if all there is

Is this?

 

Right here. Right now.

 

Is enough enough?

(Enough is enough)

Is enough enough?

(Enough is enough)

Is enough enough

(Enough is enough is enough is enough)

 

Right here. Right now.

 

Mother Mary

I keep trying to see the face

Of mother mary full of grace

In an apple core

In a sticky bun

In a stretch of clouds

In the setting sun

 

But all that’s there is just the flesh and peel

Just the carmeled crust and the pink and teal of harvest dust

 

I keep trying to tell you how

I have always loved you like I love you now

But my tongue gets thick and my brain brain goes slack

And all these words come out bric-a-brac

 

And all that’s there is just the metaphor

It’s not the whole of you

It’s not the crux and core

It’s not the through and through

 

I keep trying to understand

How a dram of atoms makes the man

And the woman too

Is that the whole of us?

Just a clump of dirt?

Just a cloud of dust?

And that’s there is just some chemistry

The arithmetic of you and me

And the human heart is just a fine machine

Not a work of art filled with kerosene

Not a mystery of colossal scope

Not a duffel bag of fear and hope

Not a megaphone of love and hate

Not a talisman to keep us safe

Not a rattletrap always breaking down

Not a spiderweb

Not a shantytown

Not a creaking bridge

Not a tank brigade

Not an oracle

Not a masquerade

Just a thing that bangs and beats and pounds

And throbs and churns and wails and sounds

And maybe all we are is dust

Maybe that’s the whole of us

 

But maybe we are magic too

Impossible and completely true

Through and through

 

Time

What is this ache

Threatening to break my heart in two?

This tender skin

I’ve been living in can feel it too

 

Might be a change in the weather

Might be I’m losing my mind

But I find myself a beggar

Bartering with time

 

The trouble with time is

The line that it flies is straight and true

It don’t give a damn about

All of the plans I’ve got with you

And there’s nothing we can do

 

For heaven’s sake

If I could only take this life with you

And run it back

You know that’s exactly what I’d do

 

Might be impossible to promise

Might be a vow we’ll bend

But let’s swear our love’s forever

And there is no end

 

The trouble with time is

The line that it flies is straight and true

And part of the deal is

The love that we feel is tinged in blue

And there’s nothing we can do

 

Of course a shortness of breath

Doesn’t always lead to death

And though life is hard

And the earth is mostly just a bone yard

It’s pretty in the sunlight

 

Strange Machines

When I can’t sleep

I don’t count sheep

Instead I try to recall

Where all that I have lost might be

And I never can

After all I’m just a man

Who’s forgotten more

Than I could ever understand

 

Aren’t we strange machines?

You and me

Aren’t we strange machines?

Human beings

 

When you dream

It always seems

Like I’ve wandered off

And you cannot find me

But it’s in your head

All that fear and dread

And I’m right where you left me

Asleep in your bed

 

Aren’t we strange machines?

You and me

Aren’t we strange machines?

Human beings

 

Bones and blood and hair and skin

And the multitudes within

 

Aren’t we strange machines

Human beings

Aren’t we strange machines

You and me

 

People Are People Too

People are people too

Just like me and you

From the tops of our heads

To the foot of our beds

People are people too

 

You seem to think they’re not

You seem to think they’re not

You treat them like things

And not human beings

But people are people too

 

Of course it’s the same for me

Of course it’s the same for me

It’s hard to admit

But I often forget

That people are people too

 

So then what can be done

So then what can be done

Just what do we need

For us to agree

That people are people too

 

People are people too

Just like me and you

From the buds of our tongues

To the air in our lungs

People are people too

 

People are really strange

People are really strange

We do what we won’t

And believe what we don’t

But people are people too

 

Sometimes they drive you nuts

Sometimes they drive you nuts

So we try to negate

With our labels and hate

But people are people too

 

Time here is really short

Time here is really short

So let’s make up a plan

To be as kind as we can

Because people are people too

 

Helluvathing

When you talk about stardust

And how it’s in all of us

The picture in my mind

Is so pretty I could cry

And when I mention Jesus Christ

I know how you roll your eyes

And if I’m telling you the truth

Most days I do it too

 

You and I

Don’t see eye to eye

On loads of things

But you and me

We both agree

That to believe in anything is a helluva thing

 

So you play the scientist

And I’ll take the alchemist

You can measure what you see

And I will read the leaves

And then when the sun is set

We’ll lay our bodies into beds

Skin covering ghosts

Knows dark matter matters most

 

You and I

Don’t see eye to eye

On loads of things

But you and me

We both agree

That to believe in anything is a helluva thing

 

It might not be as simple as I think

And we both might find ourselves awake

Asking what all of this means

And it might be the voice of God

Or it might be nothing at all

The answer is the same

 

We’re here because we’re here because we’re here

 

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Evergreen

When it comes my time
To fade into the light
To finish being stuck in between
You can find a home
To bury all my bones
Underneath an old pine tree
And when winter comes
And the wind blows cold
I will rest my head
Beneath the frozen snow

And I will be evergreen
I will never lose my leaves
I will never die complete

Well this love we share
It's not new novel or rare
But it sure is yours and mine
And if we treat it right
And we hold each other tight
We can keep it burning bright
And when we find ourselves
Running short on breath
We can trust our love
To be stronger still than death

And we will be evergreen
We will never lose our leaves
We will never die complete

My Father's Favorite Hymn

I dug my father up in Michigan
And if it's a sin
I would do it again
I drove his body over four state lines
And if it's a crime
I would gladly do the time

It is well with my soul
Now he's buried in the Minnesota snow
And it is well with my soul

When they laid him in the ground
Six hundred miles down
From my hometown
I shook my fist and cursed the lord of hosts
The one he loved the most
And I swore to do right by his ghost

It is well with my soul
Though my spirit's wandered deep into the cold
It is well with my soul

In the madness of this world
Is it too much to ask
For a small patch of grass
Close to home for the ones that we love?

I took my son to see his grave
Out by Well Lake
Off the interstate
And though my faith has grown dim
I taught him then
My father's favorite hymn

Lord, haste the day
When the faith shall be sight
And the clouds be rolled back as a scroll
The trump shall resound
And the Lord shall descend
Even so, it is well with my soul

Savages

Don't be a fool
Love is not all just simple and cool
It's hammer and nails
Cement and shale
Lightning and hail
So we prepare
To fight it clean and tough and fair
We put up our fists
Tape up our wrists
And we swing and we hit

Aren't we savages?
Starving and ravaged?
Hungry to be held close
And never let go

And we are bound
To fight it toe to toe and round for round
We fight and we fend
Come lose or come win
We fight to the end
And we go down
And bust our faces on the ground
We huff and we puff
We bleed and we scuff
But it's never enough

shoot the lights out

When the sun goes down
Over this old town
We'll shoot the lights out
And sit beneath the stars
And though our time is short
And our years are long
We will shake our fists
At the fear of the dark

And I don't know what comes after this, old friend
But I know it's not the end
of our time
I can't tell you how I know
I don't have a lick of proof
But I know it
In my heart
I do
I do